New Moon issues. Serious issues.

Forget Edward. I need a Jacob in my life right now.

Four Issues in this post:

1. Jacob

I know some people flinched as they read that first line right there, but it's true.
Edward's charm and mysteriousness mainly comes from the fact that he's a vampire. Without that, he's definitely not as special as Jacob.

Jacob was incredibly sweet and amazing even in human form. I can't even remember why I made such a fuss over Edward before. Don't get me wrong, I still love Edward, Jacob's just more special.

Ah! Jacob Black. Bella doesn't know how much she's missing out on him. Even though Edward's her choice, Jacob hurts. Jacob hurts.

(Note: I know you're freaking out right now, is Nandita mad?! Like hello! These people aren't real and she's fussing over them so much. But honestly, I don't care. This happens for me, I get extremely emotionally attached to things that aren't real / are unreachable. It happened with Snape in Harry Potter. And Jordan Jacobson. And other things.

So shush and let me back to my delusions.)

So, yes. I LOVE JACOB. And take a look at these websites, other shits like me love him too. But I'd like to think I love him a little more, maybe. So HA. (I'm completely crazy now, right?)

http://www.zazzle.com/pd/find/qs-jacob+black?pg=3
http://www.zazzle.com/pd/find/qs-jacob+black?pg=4
http://www.zazzle.com/pd/find/qs-jacob+black?pg=6

and look through the rest of the pages as well.

But I don't like them too much. Cos they put down Edward, some of them. (I love him too. And no, I'm not fickle)
GAH. And I've been so frustrated the whole time. Darndarndarn. Sorry, I dwell so much in my imagination. And hope to god Jacob somehow comes alive.

2. Songs

I have songs that remind me of Edward / Jacob.

When reading twilight, Bubbly would always remind me of Edward. I was obsessed, no, in love then too. So I loved Bubbly because it reminded me of Edward.

Now, When I think of you by Lee Ryan reminds me of Jacob. I have no idea why, but it does. It runs in my head all the freaking time. Can't help myself, it just plays in my head and reminds me of Jacob and makes me sad. Really sad.
If you don't know what song it is, here, listen to this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WbDftNmxhb4

3. Bella

I wish I was her. Do you know? I was thrilled to find out my birthday lies on the same day as hers.

September 13th.

This is one reason why I have so much hope that I could meet Jacob someday, I loved to think I was special somehow.
Somehow.

Sigh. I think it's my duty, once again, to warn you that I'm alright. It's just a very personal, fierce obsession. A harsh one too.
I need to finish Eclipse soon, in order to return to sane mode.

4. Jacob's side of the story of New Moon.

Read this. Written by Stephenie Meyer to dispel any thoughts that Jacob was evil (some stupid people thought so, apparently) I love Jacob, have I mentioned already?

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/pdf/nm_extras_jacob.pdf

Sigh, unreachable, again. Nothing I love seems to be within my reach. (Okay fine, I'm wrong here. I have MANY things I love within my reach, I'm just being hopeless. Don't mind me.)


So there, issues settled. I'm playing When I think of you now. I know it's gonna make me nostalgic, but ah heck. And don't worry, this obsession will go, with time. And my blog will finally be normal. Until then, the sanity of Nandita goes on a vacation.

Forgive me, people.

My past, my future, my all, my everything.
My laughs, my frowns, my ups, my downs.
It's the feeling that you get when you know something's true;
When I think of love, I think of you.

Please say forever you will stay beside me.

Jacob Black, you are my personal sun.